My hair is so fried.

So one day long long ago...Someday in January. I took a look in the mirror at my fuchsia hued hair with the one inch of new growth and thought, "Blond, I need to go blond, very streaky, so as these grey streaks look like they are on purpose." So me being me I did just that (even adding a pink streak)....I think I put 4(Maybe More)doses of bleach, 2 doses of crystal light. Yet I got nowhere near blond so then I hennaed back over it 2x's because obviously it was fried and another dose of chemicals would make it fall out. Now I can't help but think that might have been a good thing. I am thinking of doing a most creative thing and embrace the grey...This means I will have to cut off 19 inches of hair and start over with some gray power. Because most of it is going to have to come off just to get past the Damage (about 16 inches). I have got more important things to do than color my hair. I can't help but think He thinks I have earned everyone of the grays. I spoke with a lovely young woman at the book store this week end who was very silver. I complemented her and she reminded me about a passage about gray hair equaling wisdom....I must be far wiser than I know! HA. It will be very sad to cut it all off. Ive been growing it for awhile. If I hadn't messed it up so bad I could had donated to Locks of Love. But NO! Guess I could use it in the compost.
Please God give me the wisdom I need!
God is LOVE,
Tiffany